Realized

January 20, 2010 § Leave a comment

There are 6 billion people out there and not one of them really cares what you do with your life. So stop worrying about them and start living like YOU want to.

If you could do anything, what would you do?

December 10, 2009 § Leave a comment

Kerli here is asking her friends, what kind of superpower they would like to have if they could choose… I’ve given it a thought lately – also found in another blog I sometimes read (in Estonian) the question: if you could be god for one day, what would you change / do in this world?

So I have to put my idea down to my own blog here as well. Just to remember sometimes.

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i’d like to give people (many people, all people) more strength and belief in themselves – something like the ability, wisdom and courage to love yourself just like you are and be content; i think this would take away lots of sorrows from the world for truly happy and content people bring happiness to others as well.

or another thought, if we humans could have more linked minds with each other and with other living beings, plants, rocks, trees, everything… then we wouldn’t be able to hurt each other so nor nature nor earth. but it would only work if we accept ourselves for what we are first, for in this case, we’d love everybody else as we’d love ourself and we’d need to be able to love ourselves first. so.. back to the first idea.

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But the thing is – I actually believe people are already able to do much more than they imagine; and WE ARE DOING IT, everything, creating the world around us. But as for the way I know I control my own thoughts and impulses – rather uncontrol them would be the more realistic verb – and it applies to most other people – the way we sometimes create anger bursts into the world, I sometimes think it would be better if human wouldn’t have all the unknown powers they embody… :/ But well, eh. In the end, I love the world just as it is. I hope I do… There is a reason for everything and you need not look for a god for that reason, but for yourself and your will.

Edit: this story fits here perfectly as well.

bowie-cat went away :/

November 20, 2009 § Leave a comment

bowie over past months and weeks…

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep :'(

subtly intoxicating folk-pop

September 15, 2009 § Leave a comment

The Weepies reside here. They seem to be great people.

do you know that you can rain so easily

September 15, 2009 § Leave a comment

In the moment I found this I knew I need to share this with a lot of people. Really. I think this choir – Perpetuum Jazzile – manifests everything that means a good choir to me. Plus: they prove that you can really do anything with the human voice & body. Even rain :)

Try to listen in the HQ mode :)

This choir – Slovenia’s only jazz choir, as they say on their webpage http://www.perpetuumjazzile.si/en/ – gets to perform with the Real Group (http://www.realgroup.se). Lucky choir!! I’d love to be part of it. Or sing with them.

Good listening.

to the lost souls of this world

June 29, 2009 § Leave a comment

Today, again, I encountered something that made me angry. And sad.

It happens sometimes that when I find an extremely interesting person or musician in Myspace and I want to say hello and thanks to them for being and for sharing what they are… I hit the “add to friends” button, because that is where you start, right? Especially when you can’t comment a blog, because it is only allowed for friends? … and then I see this terrible sentence on my screen:

This user does not allow friend requests from bands.

And I feel like I am sentenced to death or something.

Or rather, that I am heavily discriminated — for having taken music so deep into my heart that I cannot live without it and refuse to create a profile without music (because that’s what i AM, bloody hell!!). And thus, being a musician but not yet a world-famous one, I am doomed to such places where I am not allowed to interact with other, “better” musicians. Or people. That’s the attitude I feel.

Well, sometimes, I have the courage to get over myself and write a message asking to be friend and humbly explaining that, in addition to a “musician”, I still possess a human heart as well. So it has happened that the sun has shone upon me and I have become friends with that person.

But today, it was an extremely unlucky day. My messages were rejected – I just couldn’t send them. Maybe there is some kind of button somewhere saying “let only my friends write me”. Okay. Whatever. It’s like I was a ghost or something, trying to interact with somebody who just doesn’t see me. I bet my ancestor souls who come visiting human world in November feel mostly the same way… nobody remembers them, nobody thinks about them…

Anyway, I don’t know what to say any more. Maybe it is better this way. Because I really appreciate people who appreciate me as myself. And if i made a “human” profile, it wouldn’t be me. It would be less than half of me or some pointless crap. So maybe this terrible sentence is to keep me away from people who are not meant to be my friends?

Maybe I will be like that one day, too? Who knows. Like when I have 17 000 plays and profile views per day like Lily Allen does. Maybe then it would really be a little hard to manage all of that myself, ha :)

I don’t blame Lily Allen. Her profile insulted me many weeks ago with that sentence and I’ve already forgiven that. She will never be in my top friends (like I wanted for a while) – but who cares anyway.

And I hope I will soon forget those profiles that rejected me today. (Though it is hard to forget an interesting profile. But I am not going to create a fake human “me” for their sake!)

And I know I will always have time and courage to meet anyone here and reply all the messages and comments I get. Because it is important for me to be there for people; to share what I am and what I think.

Thank you, all of you who are my friends. You are all important to me.


Thank you for being, for sharing, for supporting, for giving a smile sometimes.



love & peace to all of you!

haldjas

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If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself. – Tecumseh

Grateful.

April 3, 2009 § Leave a comment

My life has been quite different during last months – since I quit my job in December. Ups and downs; getting lost and finding myself again. Getting over some old troubles.

Once I decided to let everything go, things just started happening. And here I am now, in the middle of mental nowhere, on the crossroads of all possibilities.

This morning, I woke up and had a weird feeling. Emptiness. Some kind of anxiety. I felt kind of… broken. As if everything had collapsed and I didn’t even know why. Maybe because I don’t have a home; I’m living at my friend’s room a few more days, then she’ll be back from her travel and I need to find a new place to dwell. I am entering into the state of a permanent couch-surfer, I suppose :)

So, this day all of a sudden seemed to be especially grey and empty. I was trying to sleep a little more. Then I looked out of the window.

Sun was shining. This bright spring light behind the curtains was just so hearwarming, that I decided: today I’m going to be happy, no matter what. Because happiness and content is something that lies in me. In my heart. In my will.

There’s a place in the web called http://www.gratitudelog.com – a site that encourages one to express their “daily gratitude”. I think it’s an awesome idea. Because how often we are sad or displeased with something in our lives; and how often are we really grateful for everything we have?

For example, I have many good friends who want to help me lately, invite me to dinner or something, think with me, imagine, hope, listen. I have been taken care of, really. Everything around me is calm, I live in a beautiful city, where society is functioning in a normal, peaceful way; people around me know how to laugh and be happy; they are achieving their dreams, living their normal lives, having their ups and downs, sometimes arguing, sometimes smiling, getting bored of working, being happy about new tasks, helping each other out, going shopping for food and things… There is really plenty of everything you could ever wish for.

And I am grateful for all that. And the sun.

Because, to be honest, in many places of this world things are much, much worse than that. I am not going to speak about how much worse. Just watch the news and you’ll know.

That’s also why I am very grateful for being where I am now. For everything in my life, and everyone.

And that’s why I am asking this question from everyone:

What are you grateful for? Today, this week, this year, in this life, on this earth? One little thing, at least, to be grateful for. Please. Come and share :)

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